
On the field of battle...
The week in review...
It's been quite an action-packed week, but I've held back on the writing until now. Given a few moments, maybe I can fill everyone in on what's been going on. I'll start with last weekend. It's certainly been a rollercoaster of karma.
Last
Friday (April 25th) was the final day for one of our Korean teachers. She had been at our school almost as long as I had. However, there's a new crop of teachers that are dominating the scene and the time came for her to be shown her way out the door. I went out for some tuna and drinks to bid farewell. I'm sorry to see her go. She was the only person around me, at work, that both enjoyed speaking English (the others resent it and view it as work) and who also tried to understand my point of view. The coworkers who remain are now of the mind that I must bend to Korean thinking in all matters, since I am the only foreigner there... though no matter how Korean I approach things, they would never include me or ackowledge me. I'm simply missing a crucial bit of Kimchi-eating DNA as far as they are concerned.
Good luck, bad luck
At some point during the weekend, I discovered that I had forgotten my cap at one of the bars. Bad luck. It's lost forever.
But then there was good luck. On that weekend, while I lost my cap, I gained back some other things I thought I had lost. A while ago, I had recorded some of the songs I wrote here at home. I converted them to MP3 and had them on my hard drive, but when the drive crashed, I lost them. Lo and behold, friends back home (between a couple of them) had an almost complete collection. Good luck for me. I had them sent over right away, and now I have them back.
Flip back to bad luck, or more appropriately-- annoyance. I went in to work on
Monday and met the remaining coworkers (all very good friends with each other, I might add). The first thing I was asked was, "You didn't know we have no class?". The person who asked me this was coincidentally the person whose job it is to tell me about changes in the schedule. I chalked it up as rhetorical and left. I did some shopping and enjoyed the afternoon, which was warm and sunny, like most of this week has been.
Tuesday, I lost my patience. This time, the three crones in my department greeted me by saying that some parents had complained. Now the complaint was over something I know I never do, so it's either them or the parents that trumped up the charge. I knew the girls whose mothers had complained so I suspect it was the parents getting together. The complaints coincided with the issuing of monthly report cards. The students are relatively new and the mothers must have wondered why they didn't get perfect scores. In case you're reading this, Moms: Your daughters ARE crazy and apparently proud of it; they DON'T behave in class; they DON'T speak any significant degree of English; AND... the marks I gave were a lot higher than the marks I SHOULD have given them... but I was too lazy to reach for the liquid paper.
This whole situation really bugged me though. I take my job seriously and I put a lot of effort into teaching. For the most part, my students learn-- and I feel like I have done a good job. From time to time, there are students who really just don't want to be there. I only get complaints from the mothers of new students. In all those cases so far, the students in question had been pushed into going to the hagwon and were looking for an excuse to get out of it. To my memory, I've never had a complaint from a student's parents when the child had been enrolled for *more* than a month. I'd normally chalk this up to parental quirks but what
really bugged me was the way that my coworkers triple-teamed me when I came in the door. With the other coworker gone, I guess they felt a spontaneous burst of bravery and decided they'd go after me next. That lasted about as long as any other attempt to try my patience ever has. They became a lot more polite throughout the rest of the week, especially after the news hit that we were being bought out and everyone's jobs went into question.
Temporary Despair
But boy oh boy did I feel like throwing in the whole Korean towel. I'm really sick of it all. At this point it's a job and a paycheque-- nothing more. I am no longer in the mood to "win over the hearts and minds" of Koreans. It's their country. They can have it. So long as the pay me on time, I'll stay. Cross me and I'll gladly hop on the next SARS-free plane home. As it is, there's only one reason I would stay in this country past the end of my contract in January. It's pretty much the same reason I stayed for this one. Anyone who knows me deeper than my blog permits, knows full well what the reason is-- but after discussing it, decision time was moved forward by quite a few notches when I got home from work on Tuesday.
The simple fact is that I am no longer benefiting by being here. So what if I spend 3 years, 4 years, 5 years... here? Eventually I will go home and I've already come up across the barrier point. Living in Korea is no longer a mind-broadening, cultural experience that people back home will respect. Tell someone that you spent a couple years here and they'll say, "Wow. That's really cool. You must have some different perspectives on things." Hang out in Korea for 4 years and people will treat you like you've forgotten how to use North American utensils and flush toilets. Anything over the time I have already spent here is effectively just
slumming.
So that's been weighing on my mind also. My thirtieth birthday will have been crossed in Korea should I choose to stay another year, too. For God's sake, I'm going to have to get on with my life... and my life is not going to be here. It was while thinking these things that karma kicked in. I got a phone call at 7am
Wednesday morning.
Yoboseyo... What the HELL do you want?
My good friend, Dan called me up from Miramichi. Dan and I have had a lot of good times together. Most memorable, I'd have to say, was the catfishing incident (which didn't involved fish at all, so much as it involved cats and a fourth floor window. Don't worry, we didn't catch anything-- the cats outsmarted us-- but we
did manage to distract a couple of people long enough to break up a fight rather creatively). So anyway, he called me up and he didn't really have a clue as to what time it was here, I don't think. But, after spending a few minutes on the phone, he was forgiven for waking me up.
Here's a little background info. My hometown newspaper, where I actually had my start in the business, used to have an editorial cartoonist, named Bill Hogan. A couple years ago, Bill passed away. Now the paper went without having a dedicated cartoonist after that, but the topic finally came around at a recent editorial meeting. Even though I was half a world away in Korea-- my name came up. They called me here at home, I sent in a couple of old cartoons from my portfolio... then they offered me the job. I accepted it and will now be emailing in editorial cartoons, twice weekly (which is as often as they print). My first cartoon ran on Friday and my second is due to run Tuesday. (If all goes well, this second cartoon will be the first colour editorial cartoon in New Brunswick history.) After about seven years absence, I'll be staff there again.
You all know that I've had my hopes on this field for a while. I even made that New Year's resolution to do a cartoon each week here (that has since fallen by the wayside as my posts became weekly in and of themselves). Now it looks like I will be doubly keeping the resolution and will even be paid to do it. Better yet, is my frame of mind. Now it doesn't matter so much if I am slumming in Asia because I am
accomplishing something while I do it. Any leaky holes in my resume due to time away from home, are plugged.
Back to the Karmic flip
That made my Wednesday feel pretty good-- but even better yet was the next morning, since I spent the night successfully completing my first assignment. If anyone has been reading this blog though, they know one major theme of life in Korea is that
stability is not guaranteed. Ironically after showing my former coworker the door,
Thursday turned out to be my director's last day also. The school has been sold. The new manager will show up on Tuesday when we resume classes. How this will play out, I have no idea. Our part time foreign teacher noticed an ad for our school on the internet, seeking a full time foreigner. That sounds like I might get a permanent coworker but for all I know, they could be planning on replacing me. Maybe they want to try to find someone cheaper (though I am already close to working under par). Maybe they might feel threatened by the fact that in the whole school, only one person has been there as long as I have (and he looks about ready to spread his wings). This new manager is of the business above education type, and he also does not speak English. This is a bad combination so I fear the worst going into this week. Still most of the Korean teachers seem to think that my job is the most secure at the school-- rather jealously I might add.
Even in a worse case scenario, the positive news from Wednesday will keep me from floating adrift. If I happen to find myself in Canada next week, I know that I have a home to go to, and most probably steady employment. I also know that people care about me and remember me. The contrast between home and here is becoming overwhelming. There was a really nice welcome and introduction in the paper, which constituted the bulk of the editorial for that day. Part of the introduction that the editor published reads, "Welcome back, figuratively speaking, Ian Ross. We like your sense of humour and your artwork and we hope to have both around here for a long time." In some sense, it's like I'm already home...
...And it's a nice feeling to belong someplace.
Holidays throughout the week
Coming into this week, we finally have some time off. Monday is Children's Day here in Korea. Thursday is Buddha's Birthday. Both are cause for celebration and a well-needed chance to take a break. I'm going to spend my extra time packing non-essential things for shipment to Canada. It's not a promise that I'm leaving yet-- but I know it'd make me feel better.